-My Girl-

Heave a light sigh
muscles relax
leaning against you
I collapse

Finding comfort
in your voice
my protection
from all this noise

Chaotic wonder
this world of ours
hidden behind walls
where I am yours

Passionate secret
in shadows we hide
when we show ourselves
you decide

Stress induced
screaming fights
but I know
we'll survive
Dracier 2010

-Proven-

I was so stupid
to believe you would stay
habit showed you'd leave me
but I'm still here today

Funny how we thought
that you'd be the one hurt
I'm holding my heart in my hands
sadly this isn't a first

I can't believe i'm still hoping
masochist to the extreme
I love how we always thought
I'd be the one to leave

Yet again I'm the scapegoat
so stupid, but I believed...
am I so dispensable
just that easy to leave?

I should have seen it coming
allowed myself to be blind
I had always been so careful
but now i'm left behind

I would have given everything to you
I really would have stayed
I've never showed this much before
I guess this is my price to pay
Dracier 2009

-Miserable-

I'm screaming
I'm breaking
as everything goes wrong

I'm cracking
I'm losing
the wait seems so long

I'm crying
I'm waking
with tears in my eyes

I'm hoping
I'm cringing
with every goodbye

I'm whimpering
I'm hurting
deeper go the cracks

I'm stupid
I'm fading
this night will be my last
Dracier 2009

-Poetry-

I find it almost funny
that depression is a muse
what we write when we're unhappy
is by far the best

Just look at my painful creations
even in betrayal she's my muse
in pain and suffering is creation
for everyone else to see

How poetic is it
to be hung by her tye
poetry embodies sadness
there is a beauty as she cries

How morbid our thoughts reach
greatness in a minds collapse
it is a terrible way to think
all these memories brought back

The greatest poets were masochists
hating themselves in their art
trade a scar for a pretty word
I guess I should find it bizarre
Dracier 2009

-Sailor-

Tossing turning
crying screaming
tearing breaking
flailing pacing

Don't read the words
she'll hurt you again
taken to a new place
time to begin

Don't give a fuck
what people see
as you cry so loudly
just leave her be....

Her heart is cracking
all the way through
pieces are falling
those wounds wont heal

She's falling, she's losing
I cannot hold on
she's hurting, she's choking
I cannot move on

It's stinging, I'm screaming
bruises grace these lips
I'm tumbling, I'm trembling
remembering her kiss

I wanted, I waited
she's broken her word
the voices, the reasons
nothing is heart

I'm falling, I'm failing
save me from this mess
she's hurting me, breaking me
say's it's for the best
Dracier 2009

-Doubles-

The feel of the flesh
so fragile so weak
the longing so fresh
fears settle so deep

Aware, aware
my attention is drawn
so scared, so scared
of losing the one

Just thoughts, just thoughts
everyone says
Distraught, distraught
it tears through my head

Thus thus, thus thus
my heart races fast
bang bang, bang bang
gunshots could bring lasts

Slipping, slipping
controls out of grasp
crying, crying
from so many lasts
Dracier 2009

-Torn-

Star dazzling brightness
as weakness portrays
wish no one will find us
forever we stay

Hope for us, wish for us
return her to me
just minutes, just hours
she is what I need
Dracier 2009